I could not be any more blessed than I am. I am so very thankful for wonderful friends who support me, a loving family and two very selfless parents who bend over backwards for me, but the thing I am most thankful for is an amazing God and for His forgiveness. Over these past few days I saw just how big, wide, and high my parents' love for me is and how they would do anything for me and through that I got a beautiful glimpse into just how much the Lord loves me.... but more and He already did everything for me. That is captivating.

The Lord has been convicting me in so many painful, but necessary ways and I could not be more thankful for that. As many tears as I've cried these past few days, they have been some of the most incredible days that I've spent in the presence of my Creator. I've realized just how desperate I am for His love. I want to spend every second of my day getting to know Him more fully. I feel like I've wasted so much time filling my life with so many things that are not of Him. I want to live every single minute of my life unrestrained. Unrestrained in that I want to give my life away and that I don't want to keep living my life for myself. I want to live completely free in His love and mercy knowing that He keeps no record of where I've been. I am so desperate to know Him deeper. I am desperate for Him to rid me of my selfishness and to shape me into the person I was made to be. I want to bring Him glory in EVERYTHING that I do. I'm thankful that He keeps drawing my heart closer to His. I'm fighting a big battle right now in my life and I'm thankful that in the midst of it, He doesn't look at me and see the mess of my sin. Lord, I'm completely in awe of the way You've captured my heart in the biggest way yet. I'm so thankful for Your forgiveness and that You continue to make me new everyday. I love you so much, Papa.

"The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace." [Hebrews 6:24-26]

“Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” [Matthew 11:28]

“Come now and let us reason together," says the Lord, "though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow.” [Isaiah 1:18]

Tonight I'm thankful for God's redemptive love.

I'm thankful for God's unending love.

I'm thankful for God's unconditional love.

I'm thankful that the Lord is making me new.

I'm thankful that the Lord has washed me white as snow.

I'm thankful that the Lord never gives up on me.

I'm thankful that You continue to call my name even in my weakness.

I'm thankful that You're holding me right this very second.

I'm thankful that You no longer see my brokenness.

I'm thankful for Your power.

I come before You, Lord.

I come before You broken.

I come before You with my hands wide open.

I come before You desperate for your healing touch.

I come before You desperate to know You more.

I come before you completely surrendered to your love.

I'm ready to be set free.

Free from bondage.

Free from constant comparison.

Free from self-hatred.

Free from destructive thoughts.

Free from the lies that control my thoughts.

Free from fear.

Free from judgment.

Free from depression.

Free from living by rules.

I'm ready to live consumed by Your love.

Your selfless love.

Your unconditional love.

Your warm embracing love.

Your patient love.

Your jealous love.

Your gentle love.

Your humbling love.

Your wide open love.

Your all consuming love.

Your beautiful love.

Lord, allow me to spread Your love everywhere I go. Help me to love others with Your love. Protect my thoughts as I go throughout the day with my eyes fixed on you and help me to live in Your freedom.

I need You more than ever, I'm dying without You.

Lord, I'm sorry for living this way for far too long.

I want to look like You, walk like You, talk like You.

I want my life to be that of Yours.

I'm done trying to do this all on my own, so right this second I am wholeheartedly giving this struggle to You.

I declare that I am DONE living in this mess that I've created.

Lord, I'm going to need You to be my strength because without You, I'm only going to grow weak and fail.

Father God, thank You that You love me way too much to leave me like this.

I thank You for Your grace and forgiveness.

Make me new, Lord.

Turn my life into something beautiful, something that looks like You.

Thank You that Your plans are far bigger and more fulfilling than anything I've been trying to do on my own.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." -Jeremiah 29:13

How sweet is Your love Lord God.