Live Forever (College Life Spring Retreat 2011)

Here's a video my leadership team put together and showed at our spring retreat this past weekend! :)

What's on my heart

Not pretty enough. Not thin enough. Not smart enough. Not tall enough. Not funny enough. Not good enough. Not this. Not that. I'm just not. That about sums it up.

"The days will come when you don't have the strength

When all you hear is you're not worth anything

Wondering if you could ever be loved

And if they truly saw your heart, they'd see too much

You're beautiful, you're beautiful

You are so much more than all of this

You're beautiful, you're beautiful

You are treasured, You are sacred, You are His

You're beautiful

I'm praying that you have the heart to fight

Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight

For all the lies you've held inside so long

And they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

Before you ever took a breath

Long before the world began

Of all the wonders He possessed

There was one more precious

Of all the earth and skies above

You're the one He madly loves

Enough to die

You're beautiful, you're beautiful

In His eyes"

-Beautiful by Mercy Me

....I don't think I'll ever think of myself as beautiful.

I really hate when a group of people are looking at me. No, really. I do. I'd much rather blend into the wall behind me or fade into the background of wherever I am than be noticed... like a geco. I hate when professors just randomly call on me.... like no. I hate the feeling of all eyes on me and all the attention coming my way. And I HATE presentations. Biggest fear ever and I am not exaggerating by any means. Fear literally takes over me when I'm giving presentations. It's the vulnerability that I don't like. I'd much rather go bungee jumping than stand in front of a group of people and speak. I find it a little bit ironic that I want to go to seminary school for Christian Leadership. Ultimately, I want work in youth ministry or something like that... which would require me to stand out and speak in front of people all the time. OH yeaaaaah. It's gonna be a cray cray ride, but I'm loving that the Lord is leading me down that path.

I'm giving a presentation in like an hour...

And one of my Religion professors, who I absolutely adore by the way (this is my first semester not in one of her classes, but not to worry, I'll be in two of her classes again fall semester), asked me to think about putting together a project/paper and presenting it to a bunch of people at a conference thing... uhhh, I'm nervous just thinking about it.

Warm fuzzies.

I just really LOVE Jesus with my whole heart and I just love to love Him. Update to come.

"When we trust profoundly that today is the day of the Lord and that tomorrow is safely hidden in God's love, our faces can relax, and we can smile back at the One who smiles at us." -Henri Nouwen

LUH DAT.

Ashley Berg is coming on Tuesday! Iamsofreakingexcited.

Here's what our itinerary looks like for the week:

Watch Glee, eat ice cream, watch the House Bunny, go to Starbucks, update our blogs, go to Wawa to get mac & cheese, watch Jersey Shore, go to Target, watch the House Bunny again, go to Starbucks again, watch Jerseylicious, eat pizza rolls, watch the House Bunny again, then have pillow talk after Ashley plays the guitar.

SOUNDSGOODTOME.

Thankful for a God who changes me from the inside out.